“I woke up screaming with all I had. The pain I felt was almost impossible to bear and that’s when I jumped off screaming and kicking with my hair stacked with sweat. I knew I had a terrifying nightmare once again. I started to assimilate into my surroundings, I discovered I wasn’t in my room . I was in a very dark place and it was impossible for me to deny the horrific smell that engulfed this place. I so wanted to get out of this heinous place and that’s when I started to get up effortlessly when I assumingly thought I hit something. My assumptions were in the right place. I came closer to it and that’s when I came to conclude that it was a body. At the beginning, I wanted to scream, but then I held a calm breath, I didn’t know what to do. I tried to fight the flies and the smell coming out of it. Dear lord, its scenery was terrifying, it was covered with blood stains
Suddenly I felt the urge to touch it, to see for whom it belongs to. It was…………..
It was my body ! my body! It was me who was lying in front of me! I could no longer comprehend it, when and how did this happen. Then I was struck by a bitter realization and it all came to me at once. I remembered it all, I remembered when my own brother was pointing the gun at me and my mum was begging him not to pull the trigger while my father and other uncles were encouraging him to do so. Wait, I think I now remember why I was killed !
Write this down: I am Honouria who has been raped at the age of 16 . I was killed by my own brother who was encouraged by my own father and male relatives that I deserved to die because I am no longer a virgin. My brother received a lenient reduction in penalty, and everyone went back to their normal lives after the incident as if I never existed. Was my life worth nothing?”
Honoria is a representation of every woman who are innocently killed by the so called honor crimes that are usually carried out by a male relative as an act of purifying and cleansing the family’s reputation to restore their honour . According to the UN, this is what actually happens to thirteen women who are murdered in the name of honor every single day, that makes it five thousand women a year. It does not only occur in the Middle East, It also occurs in migrant communities in Europe and the USA .Moreover, It has also been estimated that several honor killings have been fabricated in migrant communities in the USA.
I am Haneen Amireh and my question to you is as follows: According to your personal perspective , how does your understanding of honour crimes-whether u think its a religious or cultural phenomena-affect your opinion of Jordan specifically and the Middle East as a whole?